After many years of resisting and exploring and depending on myself, I have finally decided to recommit myself to God. Believe me, if you knew me this would be a big surprise. Not that I was a bad person; I always justified my lack of religious affiliation by telling myself (and everyone else) that I remain a good person. But I continued feeling that something was missing.
Fast forward to July of this year, I went back to Connecticut to celebrate my mom's 50th birthday. Many of us went to church with her on Sunday, a church I have been to many times. But something was different this time; I felt so heavily what I was missing. I had tried to build up my spiritual life by doing meditation and trying to create a regular yoga practice. And these things worked wonders, don't get me wrong! But it was not enough to fill the empty space I was feeling. Standing next to my brother at church that day, it dawned on me that I needed to reconnect with God. Maybe just have a little chat...
And I have not looked back! After that first chat I have not stopped talking to Him, and more importantly I have not stopped listening to Him. This blog is not necessarily about this, but it is the reason for all of this. I keep saying that I value freedom and joy and peace and I live a life of positive intentions and thoughts and energy, but I was far from living that. I work at a great company, but I am unhappy and unfulfilled in my job and the stress and unhappiness began to come out in my body physically through muscle spasms and migraines. I am 26!
The moral of the story, and purpose of this blog, is that I will not allow myself to live like that any longer. I am taking each step on total faith and gratitude and my life is already rapidly changing. I have just submitted my resignation and will no longer be working at my cushy corporate job. I am done. I am stepping out of my comfort zone and diving head first into the possibilities of creating a life I love. And I am not brave, I am just listening now. And you can too.