When It Isn't All Sunshine and Rainbows
So you've been reading my experience so far and how many times have you talked back to the screen saying, "Ok, but it can't be realistic to be this positive all the time!" Yes, I get that. And I am not going to pretend like I wake up every morning to birds singing and I have upbeat theme music following me around and I ride to work on a unicorn. My life is far from perfect, which is why I began this journey, remember?
When you have those not so sunshine-y days, it is important to acknowledge your feelings. Like today I had a rough day at work (I'm in my final week though!) and classes were switched to today because yesterday was a holiday. Everything in me kept telling me to suck it up and push through it. But I am not feeling well, not like myself. I needed to honor that something is going on right now that requires me to take some time to do some self-care and remember that I am going to be alright. It is OK to be angry. It is OK to feel depressed. It is OK to wallow and over-analyze for a moment. But only for a moment. Honor those feelings. Honor those days. And then move forward. You can't stay in that place forever. Take the time you need, but then know when it's time to pull yourself up and get back on track.
The happiest time of my life is happening right now, but today was a rough day. There are days when I am super motivated and inspired and ready to take on the world. Then there are days when I have to congratulate myself for just getting up and taking a shower and living. There is nothing wrong with just living sometimes. We are only human and you can only do what you can do. Honor that. The sunshine and rainbows will come today, but for now it's OK if it's raining.